Sticking to "It"

Been a rough going at its right now. Decided to stay on as long as I can in the Bay, fight this out.

Helps that the landlady gave me a free month of rent, since I have been a great tenant. I am the quietest, cleanest, tenant she has had (makes me frightened to think what she had in the past).

Haven't had much to say lately. That's a lie.

After all of these four years studying, researching, and working my ass off, I have become more and more introspective; hard to imagine, since if you've met me and don't really know me you would assume that I am mild-mannered.

For those that have read this, you know that I am very much the opposite. I am self-contained, saving myself for the ones who I really feel I can share myself with.

I had a hard run-in with reality, and it is making me reconsider the PhD (for now). I don't know what to do about it, so I need time to think. Suffice it to say, it was somebody very important to my future who told me this, and it made me very sad.

Given my past, I am lucky to have gotten as far as I have. Grew up in a hoodrat school where I barely graduated (my roots are hood, or poser hood, for those that know The Sizzle (South Sac)). Got a BA, then an M.A. What next?


I want to act again. I am tired of this pedantic bullshit. I have an audition on Sept. 10th. Hopefully I'll have a job before then so I can do the acting gig. That is, if the gig doesn't pay more than a stipend.

Back to my first love, homies.